Just when you’ve almost gave up on your dreams

Humans are weird creatures. I can't seem put it as "true colours showing" neither can I say it's just the problem with attitude. Whatever it is, it was on my nerve, now it's gone so I'm just gna let it pass.

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I miss school with these girls ):

& I miss going overseas with themmmmmmmmm

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Procrastinating again. :/ But work's still work, gta do. ):

Just had a chat with mum, she wants to visit Macau, hmmm. Not a bad idea (: Managed to tell her how I'm coping and everything now. From time to time things like I should have just followed my passion, I should have listened to what my heart told me to do and blah blah; these things just made me feel more crappy. Makes me wonder, am I doing what I truely wna do? Honestly, I'd rather spend an hour on drawing delicate small puny strokes of lines from a 0.28 point ink pen than stressing out on numbers. Feel so restless, so tired, so worn out all of a sudden. :/ What's done's done, we've just gta look forward. Looking back won't do any good anyway. Period.

Ok good night. I'm gna continue on my oh so dull research. Ciao x

She's a she wolf in disguise

Speech & Sharepoint left (YAY) Then gotta mug hard cause exams are coming :/

Econs & POM presentation's over yesssssssss! (:

Just painted my nails, cannot do anything now arrrrrrr! But whatever hahahaha anyway Idk why I'm feeling quite hyper now.

Shall play game now byebyebyebyebye x

Another day where Love goes missing

This is the first time you two shout at each other that way right across my face. Has it occur to yall that maybe I do feel something, but yet I can't do anything at all? Cause I don't know how to help and I'm afraid my words might just make another think I'm taking sides. I don't agree that what either of yall are doing is right - cause it's not. Using sacarsm and threat right in front of my face just put me in the most suckest position. Is this even home srsly. I don't know what to do, what to say, and I'm not gna voice out anything either. I'm just gna zip my damn mouth and let you scold me for as long as you want, let you go on using that tone on me over minor things that can be said nicely. Be that bin who's willing to let you vent every anger out on. I will remain still and not comment anything, let yall push me around when yall fight. I just don't want anything bad to happen cause I really love the both of you very much.

And it would be such a beautiful moment

Zoeeeeeeeeee


My fav. girls ^^ idk whats with the camera angle, my leg looks :/ Dont care ahhahahahaha

I am fucking tired now. Goodnight x

Your every emotion has a direct impact on me.

All I want, is just to be there to make you feel better when you're irritated/upset, even when it's to be choking on my tears and pretending to be optimistic about things. Just to make you feel better.

Do you hear me?

Curtain's finally closing

One day, I will visit the Cathedral of Santa Eulalia. (:

Shall leave that to my dreams. Hi I am back to reality. Fucking tired ttm my eyes are gna close anytime soon :/ How am I gna even finish my econs stuff? Srsly. Damn. Fucking. Sleepy

Okay bye I'm dozing off la knn, Tracy talk to me then the msn alert shocked me omg angry :@

x

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Must share this. Dramatic version of Paparazzi, it's been out for quite awhile already though. It's still nice (:

Have a heart and understand that I'm only human

Have you ever had a feeling.. like, you wna own up to something really badly but you just can't? Cause you know, in the end you're just only gna screw things up more. It's like an all in, into something you cannot predict.

Cause somehow even from the back of my head, I know it's gna be bad. But something urges me to. Cause I don't wna live like this anymore, it's really dreading. I don't know if my heart can take it then. I really need help. Really really really.

Econs project, I beg you to down me in you so I won't wonder off to somewhere else.

Good day to all happy people. I'm gna drown soon. x

The only remedy

Rach is super happy now (: You know why? HAHA don't tell you.
(Sry I know I'm acting like a kid now)


With each word your tenderness grows,
Tearing my fears apart
And that laugh that wrinkles your nose,
It touches my foolish heart.

So close yet so far

Tiffy shared that with me, well.. true enough? I don't know.
My head's being a major bitch now.



Was at uncle johnny's condo for dinner. Today's his daughter's bday but we had no clue who she was until the time we left. Cause it was only then she appeared. Lol? Today's like a glutton day for me. Ate like a fucking pig I swear. Let me recall... Morning had meesiam, but didnt eat much. Then went to Bukit timah for laksa then went to Ikea for meatballs and chicken wings and then had bbq food. Wtf? GROW FAT AND DIE LAH!

Need to get up at 7am tomorrow.... should stop reminding myself. :/




Jellylegs finally went to develop all the fisheye pics! Man I am wondering when can she pass the cam back to me laaaa I also want to play. ):

Ok I'm so fucking shagged now I'm gna get some rest. Nights x

Definitely the best night I ever had

I'm gna take 2 shots before I go to bed. I might just die of severe metal blockage. Yay

\m/

Friday night mugger

Look who came and disturb me hahahahhahaha


Webcaming with cousin now! (:


That's tracy's solid cotton candy. It's hard like stone. And it's cotton candy. Irony?

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GONNA BE A GOOD GIRL AND STUDY MY ACCOUNTS NOW.
Deb and I should STOP talking cock online. Ok all study now... Life downstairs is so much air-y. Ok shan't crap, start studying now. I'm a geek 8)

x

Uber sleepy

You Will Be a Cool Parent

You seem to naturally know a lot about parenting, and you know what kids need. You can tell when it's time to let kids off the hook, and when it's time to lay down the law. While your parenting is modern and hip, it's not over the top. You know that there's nothing cool about a parent who acts like a teenager... or a drill sergeant!

Hahaha OKAY that was pretty random but can't help it. I was too bored. Hahahaha!

It's been a really long while since I've touched my sketchbook and my drawing pens. I kinda miss the days that I've gotta sit down for a few hours to get a drawing done. Now it's more like. Sitting down for a few hours and get my accounts, stats and management into my puny brain. Okay, touch my heart and answer honestly to this: Am I able to even sit still for half an hour on one topic? My answer is, "No."

I'm craving for icecream in bread, so I'm gna make it later. (: Grow fat and die lah, annoying.

Exam's in a month's time, seems so fast all of a sudden. Gotta be studying already. Okay nighty, gna do some reading of texts soon :/

Okay jellylegs is like making my left ear deaf and Idk why but I'm yawning big time. ): Okay gta help her think of F&N stuffzzz. Ok byebyebyebye x

Betting my bottom dollar on you

Tomorrow's Thursday and that means there's Dj's lesson :/ I feel the gloom already.

Been sitting on the same spot for the past, how many hours? What was I doing? Gosh. Today's probably the worst day of the week :/ Everyone I talk to are like either half dead or angry. Sup with the world tonight. On a lighter note, I'm THIS close to getting my new additions to my nail polish collection. Happy or what (: Gotta thank Zoe ^^

I've yet to study accounts :/ Test's on Wednesday, lol I will study soon... I will.. And just take a look at this:

You Are a Total Procrastinator

If you can a task off, you will. You hate doing chores and work. Almost all of your tasks get done late, if they even get done at all. You often find life overwhelming and stressful. You feel like you'll never get everything done. You spend more time worrying about your responsibilities than taking care of them. It's likely that you procrastinate because you have too much to do... or aren't doing the right things. Learn how to let go of what's trivial and focus on what matters. Do the important stuff right now!

It shows something about me, doesn't it? :/
Dang it I'm like in a really dull mood now. If anyone's gna bump into me, I might just fall to the ground like a total retard without energy LOL

Folks are leaving early in the morning tomorrow, shall remind mum to pack medicine and all that along later. Just in case she forgets to pack them. Speaking of that. When can I have a vacation? Hi mum, do you hear me? :s

Alright I'm gna go down to say goodnight and goodbye to me lovely folks now. Goodnight x

I wna get off and go home

OMFG my toe skin tore (idk why) and it hurts really really bad. My toe's got a boo boo now )': Looks damn retarded too wtheck don't care. Hurts so bad got prize take!!!!! Just came back from jogging, feel a little lighter. So please I beg you Rach, don't be tempted to get food.

Ok gna sleep early tonight. 2 lectures tomorrow :/ Ok nighty x

Tiredddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd

*Prays for Jazz's rotting finger. Dear man up there please help jellylegs's fingernail to hurry grow out so it would hurt so bad. Amen.* Please take care!!!

I am sososososososoosososoosososo sleepy now. I actually dozed off while sitting upright, can you imagine that? So fucking retarded I swear.

Management project dues next week and econ's the week after. Barely started on both luh, how sucky :/

Okay srsly gna take a walk downstairs then come up to do my econs. I'll die sitting here any longer cause my eyes will just automatically close. ): Ok nighty night x

Cardiophobia- Fear of the heart.

Retards.

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Horoscope for Scorpios today says.....

Love:
Speaking your mind without feeling guilty is a craft you still need to learn.

Career:
Now is the time to believe you can succeed, imagine yourself living the life you desire, and it will all happen.

Health:
Recharge yourself with a nice vacation.

Wealth:
You will need to reserve money for something unforeseen.

Yes I am reserving money for somthing super unforeseen - I don't see it coming anytime soon! ): And IF ONLY I could recharge myself with a vacation. Utter idiocy. Hahah!

I'm bored again. And yknow when I'm bored I'll start to do retarded things? Yeah so I went to read up on different phobias and super RANDOM TTM facts. Omg I feel so enlightened all of a sudden! Wtf slugs have 4 noses? And... b's suffering from doraphobia! And. 111,111,111 x 111,111,111 = 12,345,678,987,654,321 Huhhhh seriously???

Ok I am so fucking bored and the english version for Nobody by wondergirl suck balls. Sounds super weird ttm.

Ranting rubbish. Ok I shall go look for food. Die. Grow fat and die lah don't care already! Byebye x

Sleephead is me now

Happy day today!
I think..... my toe's gna grow a bilster ): I hope not.

Zoe's idol was at Heeren's today, she asked me to snap a shot for her... And so I did. From 4th floor looking down. So apparently all it could be seen.......... was the top of his head. HAHA ops!

Yawns yawns yawns trace's accompanying me while someone dota. Ok nighty night I wna rest my eyes! (: x

Showing me the world I never knew

Suppose we were happy,
Suppose it was true.
And suppose there were cold nights,
But we somehow made it through
And suppose that I'm nothing without you.

How long can one wait on? Again another night I find myself choking on tears, flooding my mind up with stupid things. Everyone's telling me they see it bad from their view. And it's not just one, not two but a few. What am I to do? I wish I had a time machine, then I'd pull myself to the future and fast forward this part.

I really wna hibernate, best for like a year. Recharged then move on being happier. One minute I'm happy, one minute I'm not. I guess everyone thinks I'm a freak or smth? Idk why I'm like this though, fatigue fatigue...

I feel so tired already. I'm wearing out already. Do you hear me?

Pick up all your tears
Throw them in the backseat
Leave without a second glance
Somehow I'm to blame
For this never-ending racetrack you call life

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I’m just a person but you can’t take it
the same tricks that once fooled me
they won’t get you anywhere
I’m not the same kid from your memory
now i can fend for myself

Whats with songs and lyrics that relates? My head is spinning so badly I'm giving 2 thumbs up for my life. Wooooo! Ok bye off to miseryland now lalalla allaa lla alala

no "x" for tonight, laughs out very loudly.

As more problems come my way

Sometimes the dumbest things can actually be the biggest problem. I hate being overprotected to the extend that I actually question myself about my age. I know myself very well. But yet it's external forces that's stopping me from doing things I want to do. And it's something I can't do anything about. How am I to say it. Sometimes I really wish I was like anyone else, free as a bird.

Who can read me anyway, and srsly understand what a dilemma I'm in. Caught in too make vines, I've got no way out. I'm caged for the longest time ever. When can I ever get free? I'm quite sick and tired of living like a jailbird.

Goodnight misery, it'll be a hard night for me.

Sleepy x10000000000

Sleepy sleepy sleepy. I left my phone 5 metres away from my uber fat body cause I'm going to catch some sleep. (:


The pink one so nice right! I know I hardly ever wear slippers and I've got like so many already! Shan't buy anymore. (: But I just think it's nice la! Okok I am like gna shop for shoes soon. Random much I know. Okay I am going to sleep now. Enough rating bout apprarently, nothing. HAHAHA. Omg there's DJLoy's class tmr.......

OKAY byebyebyebye x

Love

Rach is a happy kid today and she doesn't know how to express how fucking happy she is. (: It's always the simplest things that can make her so so happy (: xx

I'm gna play the same game

The only thing we never get enough of is love;
and the only thing we never give enough of is love.

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I wish I could sleep through today since it's raining outside and so I can not think of dumb shit things that will only get me worse. Come to think of it, I have no idea why I'm in such a gloomy state now. What do you call someone who feels... shagged, sad, troubled over minor things that gets her all _______ (now, what do you call that). Idk, my mind's blank now. Maybe all I needed was simply to feel that I'm someone.

It's like a poison in my brain
It's like a fog that blurs the same
It's like a vine you can't untangle

Maybe that's what I'm feeling right now. :/ & Thanks to JBros, the song 'fly with me' is stuck in my head.

I should start on my powerpoint for my fuckedupcb speech. Wna get this over and done with, I need rest. I really need rest. I had only 10 hours of sleep for 3 full busy days. fuckthisshit.

Cheebs, bye now.
x

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RainBi in Japanese, totally dig this track. But the korean version seems nicer though. Wdv laaa

Vampire vampire vampire vampire

It's already 330 now :/ I've just finished my milk tea, sigh lazy to make another cup. Maybe later or smth. Crap my speech is so screwed cause it's like I'm like talking crap. LOL. Temple tmr with family, uncle's death anniversary. Wonder what time we have to go... hope I can wake up. Tsk!

Gosh I have no idea what word(s) to describe how sleepy I am right now. If I don't get this shit done I'll never get it done. Ever. :/ I'm currently on the phone with Jellylegs. Poor thing. Family issues again. :/ :/ :/ And she's helping me with my speech haha! Tnxluvuttm ^^

I'm so energetic suddenlyyyyyyyyy I think I can go on a movie marathon now! Okay whatthecrap. I shall get back on task now! Buai buaiiiiiiiiiiiiiii I am so hyper now as if I'm high on alcohol crazyyy. No I'm not. I had milk tea only LOL ok it's 4 now nighty! x

I want cotton candy ):

Life doesn't always give you what you want; Life's never fair

Me and Trace were just talking about it :/

Trying to do my speech.......... So fucking annoying. Seriously don't have the mood to do it and I really have the feel to shop like a mad bitch okay. What a feeling. So terrible!!!!! ): How long never had a retail therapy man.... so long already ):

Blogger's being a bitch, don't wna let me upload pics. So wdvvvvv don't care already. >:(

Tiffy's making me laugh now I cannot say why! The skittles is still on my table..... Inside story. (:

Okay back to researching. I will die terribly if I don't start now. Bai lah. Damn it >:(
x

3am I'm so supposed to be sleeping

I should start sleeping earlier, or else I'll really become a walking zombie next week :/

I've gta start doing my speech tomorrow. Like finally. Confirm! Okay too sleepy now shall catch some sleep now goodnight x

Buy an Evo for me I will love you to death ^^

Omfg Rain rejected Megan Fox! How can Rain reject such a hottie? Maybe cause he scared have.... OPS. And why would Megan Fox be interested in Rain?! Hmmmmmmmm. Rain cute what, lol!

I'm the biggest pig cause I just got up :/ It's like 134pm now.. I'm so lazy to even go down to get food. Sandwich for brunch later, also lazy to get. :/ Watched a little bit of Too fast too furious ytd. Omg I want an Evo. It's sosososososososososososososo pretty. ):

Poor Jellylegs, have rumours again. Sjc will never give the current hot topic a break. Yet adding more. How fun! Worse is when you're in a rumour that consists of a girl with crooked teeth. Either that or, a girl who's super young like a primary school kid. OR, a girl who can irritate the fuck out of you even without doing anything - just stand there with her face at your eye level. (yucks)

Okay I'm gna get my sandwich now or whatever's edible. Then continue watching my Too fast too furious. Woohoo!
Ciao x

Well excuse me while I get killed softly

Yet another heavy hearted day. Headaches couldn't get worse than this, I wish I'd fall sick and just sleep in for an entire day.

Just finished preparing the food for tmr. Now my fingers still smell like mushroom even after washing my hands countless times. :/ Feel so drained out. And thanks to laziness, I've to spend my weekends doing my speech which I've yet to think of what to talk about. Hmmm. How pathetic.

- few hours later -

So not in the mood now. :/
It feels like I'm worn out totally... exhausted ttm. Trying to be optimistic but it's so hard to. Body's so weak I doubt I'll have the energy to start work luh fuck. Ok 947pm. I'm gna start work. ):

Nighty misery x

Get up and shake the glitter off your clothes now

That day at Toys R Us, we found JJ! So cute right! :D Everyone goes awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww ^^ ILMBFF!

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Okay today's morning to afternoon felt like such a short while. Idk why, but I woke up at 9 :/ Anyway, fastforward to evening (: Met up with my fav cuzzie Deb! :D Had McFlurry for snack then ramen for dinner. Then went camwhoring like idiots @ Clark Quay, but was really fun with her though! Missed her :(



Attempt #1 to act cheenapiang

Attempt #2 to act cheenapiang

Deb's first attempt to act cheenapiang - PASSED! :D


Love this girl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^^

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Somehow I wish my hair was this straight and colout a lil that dark now :(

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Look I have buck teeth ): And fat face and fat nose. What a sad life! K I'm talking to this moron nowwwwwwwww. PLEASE STOP FAGGING THANK YOU BELLY MUCH IT WILL KILL YOU OKAY. Sigh. Why make this world a smellier place? LOL that's totally random but ya stop fagginggingingingignignignginging it's bad! It's worse than drinking!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Okay Peace \/

Okay I wna rest now. So byebye now x